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A poem is just a poem until it saves your life. Teardrops beat against the rhythm of my mind, my limbs do their best to sink instead of swim. Breath races out of my lungs, away from this coffin.                                                                                     Inside, a trapped soul yearns, confusing calling. Words pound at my door, but my ears ring hollow.                              ...

Here is what you need to know about OCD. What it means and what it looks like. Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is when people have recurring unwanted thoughts, ideas, or sensations or obsession that makes one feel the drive to do something repetitively as a compulsion. These repeated behaviours can either be: washing hands, checking a lock on the door, cleaning things, or counting to a number. It can be categorized as a mental illness where an individual has both obsession and compulsion. OCD is not the same as having habits and thinking bad or negative thoughts. An obsessive thought might be similar to thinking that certain something is either extremely good or extremely bad. But a compulsive habit is doing something repeatedly. For example, if you touch something dirty, you then go on to wash your hands 9 times after. Even though they want to stop, they don’t possess the ability to stop and inevitably end up feeling powerless. Her...

A little emotional but much more responsible- Brothers! Brothers, a type of human being who was born just to irritate you, to tease you, make fun of you, etc, etc.... but at the same time the love and care that they do is just beyond any expression of words. Since childhood, they are the ones who have always made fun of your wedding day dreams and made you feel that they will tease you on your wedding day like anything. But on the wedding day, your brother is the same person who makes you feel so special, this cutie surprisingly remembers all your wishes and makes all your dreams come true. Was he that cute always?    So, we would love to have your 5 minutes to talk about this person who is not in limelight today. A person with whom you share the love and hate relationship.  He is your sweet brother!! Sweet as desserts and salty as yet to discover that word. Brothers are just another gift that God gives us after a father. ...

Surrounded by walls, Nowhere to go. Walls are closing in No more air flow No one can hear you Like you’re never there No one can help No one is there Kicking and screaming Yelling for help One sits and watches While the other grabs his belt Returning to school With new bruises everyday Teachers always asked But I blew their help away Knowing if I told It would only get worse Begging on my knees For him not to immerse Just laying there as time passed by Watching myself get beat I thought to myself One day I’ll be back on my feet Mustering the courage I tried to express In thousand ways I found, But thought it’s easy To just say not, and stay lie down.                                     ...

Baba is a self made man. He has a degree in Law but he decided to work in real estate business sector. He gradually worked his way up and he was successful in his venture. He is a man who has travelled the world; from China to Cyprus, you name it, he has been there. He can speak two languages extremely fluently and none of them are English. Does that changes thing? Sadly, yes. It isn’t like he doesn’t understand English. He can read it, he can even hold a bit of conversation in it but he isn’t fluent in it. Like I said, he is a self made, successful man but sometimes, the world likes to remind him otherwise. You can see that this holds him back in places. He never wants to go to parent teacher meetings, he would much rather have mama go. This may seem absurd but the reality is that we as a society have tied a person’s fluency in English to how educated they are. We make memes of people who aren’t proficient English speakers and we snicker when someone uses wrong grammar. We take...

WHAT ARE BOUNDARIES? Boundaries represent the way we approach our interactions with other people, based on our own level of comfort, by placing clear limits. They reflect what is acceptable and not acceptable for us, what are needs are, and how we feel about people’s behaviour. Boundaries help us maintain a thriving relationship with ourselves and with the people in our life. LACK OF BOUNDARIES LOOK LIKES :  Sharing too much too soon or closing yourself off and not expressing yourself clearly.  Feeling responsible for other’s well being.  Fear of being rejected if you express your truth.  Feeling guilt if you take out time for self-care.  Agreeing to something when you actually want to disagree.  Allowing others to make decisions for you; consequently, feeling powerless.  Offering support/advice when it is not requested.  Letting others abuse/hurt/ manipul...

Dear Mama, I saw you crying the other day just because you want to see us excel I see you doing all the house chores without ever having said a word You support us in all that we dream of But never ask the same for yourself Dear Maa, You cut your wings with the scissors of our happiness But you keep helping us in flying You put your own choice at the backseat Just to see us step ahead You do so much for us Yet we do so little You sacrificed yourself for us Yet we never seem to care Dear Mum, Even though I keep saying that I’ll be different in this world then you were But know that I am your shadow The same as you are.💓                            ~ khushboo ♥️ ...